It's not your fault. There's nothing you can do about it.
What am I talking about? I'm talking about you and your personal mental health. You need to step back; you need to analyze. But first, you need to be capable and understand your placement in society relative to those around you. Are you one of the crowd? Are you part of the social ambience that exists? If so, there's no need to read further.
If you continued, you are different; you are reaching out perhaps, to know more. I don't have perfect answers. I only have my life experiences over the past 60 years.
Perhaps I will begin with my conclusion of the day, and then work backwards through time, attempting to describe the circumstances that brought me to this place in time.
You are alone; you are alone and feel displaced, misplaced, rejected, along with any other descriptor to describe your emotional state.
Let's flip this around: your personal circumstance is simply your uniqueness. This uniqueness is a sense of accomplishment, and you've made it this far. Others will see you as arrogant. It's simply their jealousy. Most people make involuntary responses at the moment. Their subconscious provides the context for their response. If they sense fear, the response will be defensive. Perhaps the most difficult thing to understand in this situation is that you are not at fault when faced with this emotional response. There is only one option: walk away, do not engage further.
To be continued…
